Chemical Imbalance

I have an ongoing fear that
because I cannot always rise to the occasion
to fulfill the pressures of being happy/normal/adaptive,
that either my depression spells or anxiety attacks
will warrant the removal of my offspring.

If I have no desire to be around myself in those moments,
should my children have to bear it also?
Should my husband?
Should anyone?

I pray that one day I'll be fixed and have better things to worry about.
Like, how we're going to pay for college.
Why the weather is so unpredictable.
The important stuff.